When my first pregnancy ended in miscarriage just as I was beginning my second trimester, I was devastated. Since we hadn’t told anyone, even our parents, that we were expecting, I felt completely and utterly alone, especially when it seemed that my husband was over his grief before mine had even started. I spent months in deep depression, wondering why this had happened to me, and if I would ever have a successful pregnancy (while fighting the urge to beat up the people who insisted on telling me how normal miscarriage was and that it happened all the time).
When I became pregnant again after a few months, anxiety compounded my feelings of grief. I found solace in two things: an excellent counsellor, and a book by Canadian author Ann Douglas called Trying Again: A Guide to Pregnancy After Miscarriage, Stillbirth, and Infant Loss. This book provided me with some much needed perspective, and helped me come to terms with some of the things I was feeling – including whether or not I was emotionally ready for another pregnancy. Filled with excellent resources and medical information, I highly recommend this book to anyone having trouble dealing with the grief of losing a baby and worrying about trying again.
[...] the well-being of my unborn child. Of course, all of this has to do with my first pregnancy, which ended in miscarriage. Now that I own a fetal doppler, I wish I’d purchased one when I became pregnant with my [...]